15 people from LCC recently traveled to the Christian Counseling and Education Foundation national conference to be better equipped for ministry, life, and friendship. I asked Jill Butler, Shepherding & Counseling Coordinator at LCC, to write a summary for all to learn from what we learned. Here is what she wrote:
I am needy… no that’ s not easy for me to say, though I’m learning that God requires me not just to admit it, but delight in all that it means. Last week I had the privilege of going with a few others from LCC to the Side By Side conference hosted by the Christian Counseling Education Foundation. For 3 days we discussed how we journey together as believers through many different circumstances. The first main session was titled “Our Neediness is God’s Gift”. I read the brief summary of the session and thought, “I should like this a whole lot more than I do.” I struggle with seeing my neediness as a good thing. It didn’t take long for the speaker of the session, Ed Welch to connect our neediness to our faith in God. He said, “Faith is your dependence on another. Faith means I need Jesus, I am weak.”
I love my God, I love that He has called me and saved me by the work of his Son, so why do I wrestle with being weak and needy? There is a direct line between what I believe about my neediness and what I believe about my God. I struggle with neediness because I struggle with my identity. I want God and others to think well of me. My fear is that if people see my neediness than they will see how unaccomplished I really am. That fear takes root in my heart and I start to believe the lie that I shouldn’t be weak and needy. When I believe that lie, I have to start hiding where I am not doing well. I have to cover up instead of inviting the Spirit and others in, when the truth is so much sweeter than that. I am not just free to be needy and weak, but I am called to be! This is where I need to run to the Gospel of grace, I get to rest in the truth of 2 Corinthians 12:9,10 “… My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me…for when I am weak, then I am strong.” It’s my joy to be found weak and needy so that He may be found strong. My identity is defined by the work of Christ. In my weakness I get to be free to be accepted by Christ not because there is anything good in me, but because Christ is good. It is there where the striving of performance stops and the understanding of my neediness gives me rest!
- Jill Butler
See Jill if you are interesting in listening to the audio from the conference, I’m sure she’d be happy to have you learn about your neediness too